Someone said once that depression is not a word or a feeling, it means deep rest actually. It is true, depression is that thing that eats us alive, it eats every single part of our happiness, energy, joy, it breaks our wings and kills what we have and what we are.

If you could change the way you feel, would you choose to be happy all the time?

I don’t think so. It would be exhausting at some point, only because happiness, in its essence is the thing we fight for.

And if someone would be happy all the time, couldn’t feel the actual taste of happiness.

Every single thing that we feel it’s good for our soul and body, even if sometimes it’s not fair to feel the way we feel when we don’t want to, but who said that this life is fair?

I accept to be “deep rest” when it comes to sadness, not to be happy all the time, I accept pain over infinite happiness.

But I choose to taste happiness. If I’m not happy, that’s perfect and it means my soul craves for a break, for a reset and a new way of seeing the beauty of the world.

But it is tricky, depression is tricky. It is true, loneliness is the cure for a broken heart, but only if you learn how to let go of it. Don’t stick with it or it will be like a shadow that you can’t get rid of.

Try using depression (deep rest) in your favor, for your soul but don’t live with it, if you build for it a permanent house in yourself, you might end up in a dark place where’s no room for happiness.